⁎ MEZZANINEM .
INDEPENDENT & SELECTIVE MULTI-MUSE BLOG. +18 ONLY. CURATED BY TED.
⁎ GUIDELINES .
⤬ 001 . good morning / afternoon / evening! if you haven't seen already, i'm ted, 20-years-old, and i use he/him pronouns. due to my age & sexual themes on this blog, this is not a safe space for minors, so if you are one, please redirect yourself from here and have a lovely day! this is for both of our safeties.my activity levels will vary from low to medium as i have poor mental health that hinders me from replying to people in general, not just regarding roleplay. with that, i ask for your patience as i am never intentionally ignoring anyone, and i'm always down to discuss plots / characters / whatever your heart desires! i do sometimes favour certain threads over others, but that is more based on my mood & motivation more than anything. i value everything i write with people — because if i didn't, i certainly wouldn't be doing it. i stand by that policy.a small disclaimer is that i write primarily on mobile and only use block-quotes / icon borders with replies. i'm very much just a writer and not an editor so i like to keep things simple but presentable. i don't mind what media you use (if anything) so please don't feel you need to mirror me! that also applies to reply lengths.discord is where i'm most active outside of roleplay so mine is available upon request.
⤬ 002 . shipping is not a priority to me. i say this right off-the-bat because i have been in too many situations where drama has ensued because of my reluctance to force characters together, which is something i want to avoid on here. almost all of my muses are also single ship for my own peace of mind. having said that, i am more liberal when it comes to writing smut between characters who aren't necessarily a good match but i ask you to please message me first before asking for such. if we have discussed it before, you're free to go ahead and request however much you like.
⤬ 003 . i don't tolerate drama. this is self-explanatory; i am here to write and relax, not read five paragraphs worth of a call-out post over something that could have been resolved with a simple message. if i see you behaving in such a way without a valid explanation, i will remove you from my vicinity.
⤬ 004 . content warnings. there will be many potentially disturbing & triggering themes written on here. i completely understand if you read this and decide to bow out — and i encourage you to, for your own well-being. the list of things you may see written are as follows:mentions of sexual assault / emotional & physical (child) abuse / self-harm. gore. heavy sexual themes. internalised homophobia / transphobia. suicidal ideation. cannibalism.
⤬ 005 . banned individuals. i don't have many, but if you do support and / or use any of the following people, please see yourself out:any known or suspected abusers / sex offenders / racists / homophobes / transphobes, etc. children. people who have asked not to be used for roleplay purposes.
⤬ 006 . credit goes to the lovely minasharker on twitter for the blog set-up & block-quotes, and hellscommission for the carrd inspiration.
⁎ ROSTER .
ORIGINAL CHARACTERS .
⤬ SEBASTIAN YOUNG / GORDON. PRIMARY. SAW FRANCHISE. JUSTIN HARTLEY. SEE MORE.
⤬ HUNTER GORDON. PRIMARY. POST-SPIRAL: FROM THE BOOK OF SAW. XAVIER SAMUEL.
⤬ DR. HARVEY CARRIGAN. PRIMARY. SCREAM VI. JOSHUA JACKSON. SEE MORE.
FILM & TV .
⤬ DR. LAWRENCE GORDON. PRIMARY. SAW FRANCHISE. CARY ELWES.
⤬ CEDRIC DIGGORY. SECONDARY. WIZARDING WORLD. ROBERT PATTINSON.
⤬ DODGER. SECONDARY. OLIVER & COMPANY. JACK RUSSELL TERRIER / BILLY JOEL.
⤬ ANGEL / ANGELUS. TERITARY. BTVS / ATS (S1-3). DAVID BOREANAZ.
⤬ THE DOCTOR. TERITARY. DOCTOR WHO. PETER DAVISON.
EXCLUSIVES .
⤬ JEREMIAH AKERMAN. FOR RUINEDTENDENCIES. EX-HUSBAND OF BILLY LOOMIS. FABIEN FRANKEL.
BIOGRAPHY .
━━ ( 1986 — 2005 )BORN OCTOBER 10th, 1986 in king’s county, new york city, sebastian young was mothered by a seventeen-year-old amanda young — father unknown but never hindering him. three years was all he had with her until detective eric matthews interfered and wrongly imprisoned her and many others, forcing him into to be a ward of that state on the grounds of having no relatives that would step up to the plate.he was bullied quickly by the other kids at the home & at school (poor mental development always will grace a child with social disadvantages), and between that and various foster families, he turned from a well-behaved boy into the exact opposite. his mother would come back for him, he told himself. how cruel the mind of a child was to this baby, and he did wait. and wait. and wait until eventually, he hadn’t a clue what he was waiting for anymore. by eleven-years-old, he began standing up from himself. violence rose in him, and by the time he was in his mid-teens, it had become so normalised that one day without the adrenaline drove him insane. that wasn’t the only difference, though. it was middle and high school that boosted his confidence, realising that he was much smarter than he ever gave himself credit for. such a thing manifested into narcissism, and he clung onto that as if his life depended on it.by the age of fifteen, sebastian had created a reputation for himself. at the care home (and there were many), he was the somewhat rebellious, yet loving boy who always took the time to engage with the younger residents because of his own desolation at their age. at school, though, he was egotistical, aggressive and always picked the first fight. granted, some of these were in an attempt to help others, but the majority were just out of his own pleasure. that’s why he had more enemies than acquaintances, and more acquaintances than friends. even his devoted girlfriend couldn’t quite keep up with him — and he couldn’t keep up with her. by that age, he was deep into questioning his sexual orientation, and the rough exterior was a mask so he’d never have to expose his indecisive mind. ironically, it was his ways that caused the secret to unravel.when he was a month into being sixteen, everything crumbled from underneath him. his teens introduced him to baseball, and that was the sole thing he worked hard for, despite his intellect in stem subjects. but he was kicked off his high school team after he attacked a boy for throwing around the idea that he was homosexual and — this on top of not being awarded title of team captain — sent him into overdrive. a sole, light altercation with his principal then solidified his fate. he was stripped of his student status with nothing left to fall back on.dismayed, he confided in a boy he lived with; a rare thing for him to do as moving around so much means little opportunity for friendship. the boy expressed a mutual liking to him, and they gave themselves up to each other — but that one evening of liberty would soon end in ruins, naturally.staff discovered, the boy denied all involvement and got physically violent, and sebastian wasn’t foreign to this. all he did was fight — be it for himself or other kids who he pitied. but not this time. this time, he allowed himself to be beaten by both carer and not-so-much lover, and by the early hours of the morning, he was gone with nothing but his rucksack, a few bucks, and the clothes on his back.the start of a new life ... or so he had hoped.after days of travelling, he found himself upon a brothel — mistaking it for a simple bar — and the boy, luckily, found work as a tender. his appearance has always been that of someone much older, and lying was easier than he had anticipated. whilst he did his job, it occurred to him that there was a possibility that a personal form conversion therapy may be effective on him, and so he used the little wages he had to pay for sex with women. these prostitutes were much older than him, and even though it is already considered statutory rape, some went further once sebastian was blacked out. he has no recollection of this, but he has his assumptions on whether or not it did or did not happen with the few pieces of evidence left behind. it plagued him still, and eventually, after countless encounters of that sort, he decided to stop trying — mainly because of how it was making him feel. uncomfortable; dirty. all the negative emotions possible. he wanted to leave but continued to stay there for employment reasons until december of 2003 when the brothel was busted by authorities. sebastian managed to get away with his nose clean, however. it was a talent that he mastered well, but it may not have been the wisest decision. not with what came of his life next.peer pressure to fit in with gangs among the streets led to drugs being abused. at the brothel, sebastian had already tried ecstasy. even before that on halloween of 2002, he had smoked cannabis, but these drugs were not to be matched. ecstasy was a dangerous combination for the boy due to the release of serotonin, but these drugs were the likes of cocaine & diamorphine (heroin). the addiction caused his speech and brain function to suffer greatly, as well as his overall moral outlook; brawling more often and stealing from anyone who he deemed easy enough. he traveled back to his native city at this time, and that’s when he acquainted himself with a young man at his former school. the individual was stressed — having to look after a fatherless home with numerous young siblings. sebastian knew this struggle, somewhat, and even though he had only been the messenger, narcotics became their bonding purpose. he vaguely became acquainted with the boy’s family, spoke to his girlfriend often. such conversations turned poisonous over the drugs and the now undeniable fact that the young couple were expecting a child.it was at least seven months into this friendship when sebastian met john kramer.he was high; a little drunk. soaked by the night’s rain near the homeward bound clinic where he had set up his little residency. john tried to reason with him, and then he got the boy’s name, age, and city of birth. that was enough, especially with who sebastian resembled — even if that was only known to john. it was a month or so after this encounter that things took a turn for the worse.one of the gangs that sebastian was affiliated with began to find firearms in their possession, and any wrongdoers would have to suffer from a muzzle. it was sebastian’s dear friend that had tried to steal from them in order to provide for his family and himself, and due to his ties with the boy, it was his job to turn the gun against him. the intention was not to kill, but to seriously injure just enough for a lesson to be taught.not such a thing was executed, though … only a human.manslaughter. instinct told sebastian to flee, and so he did. he didn’t get very far, because his lack of wisdom brought him to the street corner he had set up for himself, and it was there that he was kidnapped by someone unbeknownst to him. when he woke up, he had sixty seconds trapped between revolving blades, and they tore all the flesh and fibre of his forearms. a puppet greeted him, and everything faded to black.waking up the first time was excruciating, and met with a blond, disabled doctor who had to restrain him and restitch his arms after a long resistance. the second time, he tried to escape his captivity, only to be hounded by the same man and met with someone new.a woman. positively as beat up as he was.she brought him to the old man he had met a month previously, and he explained what had happened. he needed to be 'fixed'; rehabilitated, and having passed his ‘test’, he was. he, now, had the opportunity to lead a whole new life, but there were conditions. he had to stay there — gideon’s meat-packing plant — for a little while, and he had to keep the doctor a secret from the detective who would no doubt arrive relatively soon afterwards. frightened and experiencing heavy withdrawals, sebastian agreed, more so thinking about how this would also buy him some time in creating a decent excuse as to why a young man was now dead.so he stayed; minded his own business (there was — is — no desire to dwindle in these games), got used to having busted tendons, and learnt the names of the disciples. amanda young, mark hoffman. logan nelson; the medical examiner he rarely even crossed paths with. jill tuck; the unfortunate former wife who was robbed of being a mother. and doctor lawrence gordon — the only one he trusted ... aside from the strange cheerleader who had arrived before him; still ripe with high school popularity but with a distinct sadness in her eyes. her name was julie kostenko.he clung to lawrence (and julie, to a lesser degree) as if his life depended on it, recognising quickly that he would do him no harm. he doesn’t trust cops, or women, which leaves little room for conversation. but amanda, slowly but surely, grew on him. the same dry sense of humour, the same struggles that didn’t need to be proclaimed to be known. john wanted this boy for a reason, and she didn’t know what, but her faith in him did not dwindle. she tried with him, and john could see that. after a month or so of obliviousness, he told her what purpose he really had.john was denied a life with gideon, and now, amanda would no longer be denied a life with her own.it was up to lawrence to tell sebastian the truth after a short period of time, and the atmosphere was tense. to amanda, this child was a stranger at best, but to sebastian? it didn’t take long for him to become immersed in this idea of family. now, after over a decade, he finally remembered why he waited for so long.━━ ( 2006 — 2020 )settled and somewhat content with this new life, sebastian found difficulty when amanda and lawrence had a baby, aurora gordon in june, 2006. the sister he never anticipated, and a father to go along with her. but this family did not stop there — not when that strange cheerleader stole his heart in the end, as he stole hers. though leading to yet another sexuality crisis, it was the happiest sebastian had ever been. his luck could only grow from there; earning his high school equivalency and soon being drafted off to the new york mets by late 2007.
VERSES & AUs .
⤬ SAW : HAVING PASSED HIS TEST, SEBASTIAN HAS STAYED WITH HIS MOTHER IN SPITE OF THE DANGERS & REMAINS AN UNWILLINGLY ACCOMPLICE TO JIGSAW'S GAMES. SET IN 2005-07.
⤬ SPIRAL: FROM THE BOOK OF SAW : A FORMER NEW YORK METS SUPERSTAR, SEBASTIAN IS HAPPILY MARRIED TO DR. JULIE GORDON (NEÉ KOSTENKO). TOGETHER THEY HAVE FOUR CHILDREN — INCL. HUNTER GORDON. NOT EVERYTHING HAS BEEN BLISS, HOWEVER, AFTER NARROWLY MISSING ACCUSATIONS OF BEING THE COPYCAT KILLER. SET IN 2020-PRESENT.
⤬ DEAD BY DAYLIGHT : AN UNORTHODOX SURVIVOR, HIS PREVIOUS LIFE ON THE STREETS HAS SEBASTIAN EQUIPPED TO SLINK THROUGH GORE & TEMPORARY DEMISE. BUT WITH A KILLER FOR A MOTHER, HE FINDS THE BEST IN BOTH WORLDS. SET AFTER HIS TEST (2005).
BIOGRAPHY .
━━ ( 1991 — 2009 )born on february 7th, 1991 & raised in the bleak village of broomhedge, ulster, it could be said that isolation was something harvey learned to cope with — particularly with the piercing fact that he wasn't born a boy. voicing this part of himself resulted in ridicule from his father, and his mother was too preoccupied with herself to pay him any mind; so much so that she left them and his older sisters for the united states when he was nine-years-old, leaving him in what would develop into an emotionally abusive environment.the loss of his mother caused a large void to be created, in spite of her disregard for his existence, and depression & anxiety followed and grew by the time he finished primary. secondary school brought more strife, struggling to figure out his sexuality alongside knowing his gender was not the one people perceived him to have. this led him to the world wide web, and he soon connected with likeminded people that introduced him to the horrors of the real world: true crime cases and paranormal phenomenons that he spent too much time researching once he learned of each one's existence. it was a peculiar warmth to read of suffering that was not his own, and he soon became desensitised to everything.one could count that as useful for what was to come, which was a progression of abuse, leading to one night in 2008 when his father beat him black & blue after an explosive argument. he fled to a friend's house in the night & hid until morning, and refused to explain what happened in school the next day other than it was 'an accidental altercation with an unknown assailant.' this was the first of many instances that forced him into the choice to plan his life further than university — if he made it that far. he had to make it that far, and so he set aside all his previous enjoyment to earn the points needed to leave that life behind.and he managed to. he managed to exceed everyone's expectations, and he didn't wait to implement the plan he had been waiting for so desperately to become a reality.━━ ( 2009 — 2019 )after graduating secondary school, harvey decided to take the risk of moving overseas to copenhagen, where he began to medically transition and work towards a bachelor's in international business. and the hard work paid off immensely — allowing him to do a master's in business and organisational anthropology, and then a PhD in business, management and law.during this period, he became almost fluent in danish, and wrote many criminological articles & posted them to online forums. it was there that he began communicating with fellow enthusiasts of true crime. it was a year into his once-pastime being reignited that the woodsboro murders were, too, with someone by the name of jill roberts at the reigns and centre. but she wasn't the main attraction for long — not when a girl by the name of kirby reed was missing, presumed dead. something about her caught harvey's attention, but he knew better than to centre himself on a murder survivor. instead, he read the books, watched the stab movies — both religiously. much like many of his teenage years, he could almost recall the whole case on command.however, this suspected infatuation soon became a reality for himself, discovering that his departure from ireland had somehow transfigured into his departure from the world. his father had told everyone that he had died, due to his decision to escape their household and transition, and that settled things for harvey. he could never go back home, if he could even refer to it as such. he was meant to be isolated — but this fuelled his desire for education & triumph. so much so that he decided to become a professor once his PhD study had concluded.for two years, that's exactly what he did. it wasn't what he had anticipated, but it was manageable. perhaps not ideal with his standoffish personality — developed through years of neglect & anxiety — but manageable nonetheless.━━ ( 2019 — 2023 )yearning for new surroundings, new york city was the next stop for harvey, which proved to be a wise one. he was employed by the university a few weeks after his arrival, but had a difficult time settling in with his new colleagues for the same reasons as before, and his questionable accent & background. he was friendly, though reclusive, and this was off-putting for those who had even a slight interest in knowing him. regardless of the lack of relationships, he was successful and free: the only thing he wanted to gain from his premature emancipation.that was until he was no longer the freshest face in the teachers' lounge, and his satisfaction with seclusion was soon threatened by someone he recognised — read about for hours.kirby reed. a survivor, presumed dead, just like he was.